A sunday of loneliness..

Sunday is usually a fun day for peers, families, and other people but for me its a whole day of loneliness..
Its not really a big deal because I had chosen to leave this kind of life..
A life with out any friends.. A life that stays away to other people..
why? maybe because life has never been great for me..
I got a very awkward family whom I can't be proud of..
I have no friends but others would think that's not possible but its true..
Friends..
I got friends when I was in elementary and they are to many to tell but now I don't hear a single words of what happened to them after I entered High School..
I also got some friends in High School but since I spend most of my time in front of TV playing computer games or in front of a PC also playing online games so I rarely have serious friends..
So after I graduated in High School and went to college, 1 by 1 all my High School friends disappear.. even my closest friends disappear not a single word from them..
Finally at college its not that lonely at first because I meet some friends(again) but again after a few year when I stop going to college because of financial problem I never hear a single words from them..It was really a memorable experience in college because its the first time I went to the beach with so many friends..Attend so Birthdays and debuts .. went to there houses.. and so on.. but after I left the school I never heard a word form them..
maybe because I am use of living this lonely life..
And I forgot to mention I never had a childhood friends(maybe I got some but just forgotten)..
My Sunday life has been like this for the past 2 years after I left college..
early in the morning I eat with my family after that I go to some Internet cafes and stay there until it gets dark.. then went home.. I don't like to went back early because I will only see lazy people and I am always get scolded and insulted because of there laziness..
I really hate being scolded when I had no fault at all..
I got 2 lazy sisters but my Father always tell that I am the laziest of them all even do I always do the dishes, cook the food, do some laundries, and etc..
They are like princess in our house..
Sometimes I went to the church with them (I only go if my mother go with them but if not I won't go either) I really don't like that church we are attending at the moment due to the fact that my father is the priest in that church and even after the mass there are free foods I still don't want to go there..
will I really hope this would be my last year since I am really bored of my stupid life..
My Life has always been Like a Leaf that had been waiting to rust and can't do anything about it..