Happy Birthday..

Here I am again at this day
To great you in a joyful way
Since it is the day I should be Thankful
because you had always been wonderful.

It might be one sided and selfish
but rest assured I am no fetish
A promise I made with my self out of stupidity
To continue even if it has no meaning for eternity.

As always I am your stranger out of blue
A person who's character and face you have no clue.
But I am no stalker who wants to be near you,
I am just me who thinks about you..

So sad to think that a gift I cannot give
and hope you have plenty to receive
If none then don't be deceive
Your life is the best gift you had ever receive..

If you are alone in the edge of darkness
Just spread your wings in the sky of loneliness.
And you will see the world is not yours to have
but rather it is the only thing your heart could love..

Hated, Envy, Jealousy ,Loneliness, Feeling worthless,
and thought that you are the very meaning of darkness.
Then think of me as weaker than you,
Since you are my only Angel above the sky so blue..

Happy Birthday a simple words I could easily say
And Be happy and content on this very day.
Special or not I am no where to stay,
Just s single smile is enough for thats the only wish For you I could pray..

First of all this is dedicated to my one and only Angel..Happy Birthday!!
Funny since I always admire her don't know why..( And his a total stranger to me)
will I am that kind of a person.. I hope you could also read this..
The reason I think why I never approach her was not because I am very shy(although its one of the reason) maybe because If I befriend here then the word stranger would be lost.. lol I am really weird hahaha to like someone for more than 7-8years? and never tried to meet her even though I had plenty of opportunities and time.. All my message for your Birthday had been said at my poem.. then again I am bad with english so please be patient to understand it :P..

-Leafrust

Leafrust

Imagine a Single Leaf in a tree
If it fall would it be free?
If it stay would one can see
A lonely leaf that has no right to be free..

Have you been happy this day?
A joyful heart I had always Envy..
You who had some friends to comfort your heart,
Mine is a single curse where everything had start..

You who had been not known
The only thing I wish to own
And yet you had been born
To a place where I could not return..

How long had I been like this,
This memory I could not dismiss.
Years may had past when I first look at you,
And still here I am who don't know what to do..

Such a fool to understand my soul
much worst is my hunger like a ghoul,
And yet I wish not to eat,
Since it will show my one and only defeat..

To smile with an empty feeling,
And laugh with a heart that is crying.
A single soul not worth remembering,
A child I am born with selfish misunderstanding..

I live a world I had known
And yet one self can't be shown
Since it is created by my own
A world filled with lies and unknown..

Why has always been my question,
And No has been my Inspiration
But still my heart has no objection
To a life that is near once destruction..

Would It End If one is gone and Disappear,
Or rather continue with the punishment of a reaper.
A punishment that has no pain nor suffering,
Just an eternal darkness of everything..

It has been 2 months since I write something at my lonely blog..
well I had been busy lately I got my self I job that best fit my computer time..
I can now log in 4-6 hours at the price of half since I am just using pc inside an internet cafe..
I also became I quiet addicted in reading manga..
well The reason I blog today is to write some poem because a special someone is having a birthday.. as always I feel writing a poem about her..
Even though my English is Bad.. hey I am doing my very best here hahaha..