But I realize that would be useless since a hobby can't be forgotten in a single day..
First of all I had a sad new years eve..
My parents started a fight at exactly 12am at January 1..
The reason of the fight sounds silly so I don't need to put it here..
The truth was I am expecting a fight between them but I thought my father would confront her after new year I never expected the fight would happen at exactly new years eve..
In the End we never quite celebrated new year..
This is one of the reason why I don't like special occasions like this (including Christmas)..
They always find a reason to make this special day a bad one..
I spent the rest of my new year (january1) at my aunt's house..
I don't feel staying at my own house.. my father wasn't still done lecturing us..
The blame of the failure new year was giving to us siblings including my mother..
The truth was the conflict started with my father but then again it is of his nature to put the blame to others and not to him self.. He always find a reason to exclude himself from the blame..
I had always been the center of the fight between the two in past few years..
Now that I am older I can somehow understand my father and mother..
If only I wasn't born maybe they both have a happy and separate life..
I was the center of frustration, the center of blame, the center of hate, and the center of there life's failure..
So I can't blame them If they hate me that much..
I won't say why it is like that since I only write here to remind me of certain things..
I won't embarrass my family or put shame on them than I already have..
As what I always do I well write my New years poem..
It is for my own and for everyone who read and accept it as a message for 2011..,
An old book made New
I always read old books filled with life's stories
Since It made me remember my own life worries
Every year is like an old book revised to be new
Same old stories and yet something was added to view..
Every new year comes we tried to Skip the pages of truth
We filled our self with lies and hide the thing we couldn't fought
Why are we always excited when new year finally arrive?
When we are quite aware that nothing would be new in our daily Life
I guess since its in our nature to have little faith and hope
We failed to see that life has always been new
Everyday Is different and important times were few
Like a book our life needs someone to read..
Let your life not be a new book filled with lies
Instead find someone who can read your every files
Take notes if you find something wrong
And read it again but this time one must be strong..
That's it for my new year poem.. My message for 2011..
I hope people who reads it understand what it truly means..
I had a lot of doubts in this year..
I doubt If I could truly live a life this year but I well keep on trying..
As long as I am alive..
As long as this little fragile hope is still available..
I will try not to be dead this year...
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL~~
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