Curse Life..

Frankly speaking I already lost any reason to feel in fact if someone stab me or if I am hit by a car I no longer care at all..
Maybe because I am born curse..

It is quite annoying having both parents hate you..
not just an ordinary hate but a hate that came from ever since you are born..
A hate that can be consider as a curse by the one being hated..

The thing is both parents aren't aware of the curse(hate) that they are inflecting to there child...
They hated being together that the child always wanted that they break off because every time something is wrong it always fall to the curse child..
Then add the stupid if not blindfolded siblings who doesn't really care since luck are at there sides and they are born bless..

This curse may be just a simple selfish defense against once self but what ever it is I am some how aware of it and its eating me inside out..

To my Demon Father who hated me ever since I was born in fact the first thing he did was to know if I am really his child..
If you love your work so much you could have made me abort(killed me) and now you blame everything to me to the life that you your self created..
You always said I had no future and i somewhat accepted it and know I am only living this life for the sake of watching you fall to the ground..
You Pathetic bastard I somewhat pity you truth to tell I fear your more than everything on this world, my fear of you surpass my fear of God..

To my Selfish mother who also hated me ever since I was born in fact he only let me live so she can get some financial assistance for herself..
You selfish bastard since your foreign boyfriend dump you , you went to my demonic father and know you suffer the result of your grave mistake..
You greedy whore you are already an old hag so stop acting like a damn 18 yr old girl and If you want to find another man please choose a single and not a married one damn you dumb stupid idiot mother..
You made my life quite miserable and now I am living my life just to see how much you suffer because of your own actions..

To my uncaring and worthless siblings..
I hope you enjoy our good for nothing family..
I wonder how long the both of you can pretend to have a good life..

TO my worthless, Pathetic, and curse Self
How long well you condemn your self into living into this unwanted world..
Are you still not tired of this worthless life?
Are you still afraid of killing your self?
Without your family you can never live in your own..

Such an annoying day..