Leafrust

KASAMOK NINYO OI!

2011-07-18T06:32:00.000+08:00

HASTANG PAITA NA LANG ANI..

CGE NA LANG AWAY MURAG MGA BATA TIGULANG NGA BAYA MONG DUHA..

UNYA ANG GI AWAYAN HASTA RABANG MABAWA ANG POBLEMA PAG MAGAWAY UNGKATON PA MAN GUD TONG DUGAY NA NA HITABU MAO MASKI MABAW RA ANG HINUNGDAN MO DAKO LANG GIHAPON KA DUGAYAN..

UNYA TAGA AWAY RABA AKO TANAN PADALONG ANG BASOL ATAI NAA RA BAYA KO SA KILID NAG HILOM HILOM..

HAHAY MAG HIKOG NA LANG KAHA KO ANI PARA WALA NA GUBOT

UNSAON MANI AKONG INAHAN MURA NAMAG BOANG HAHAY DUHA RAY PADUNGLAN ANI MENTAL HOSPITAL O D KAYA PRISOHAN..
TI GOWANG NAKA OI AYAW NA CGE UWAG2X DHA DAGHAN KAU KA BESYO BA AKO GANI INTERNET LANG IKAW YOSI INOM UG LOTTO ATAI OI..
MAU UNTA IKAW LANG BASULON DAMAY BAYA KO PERME..

BARATO RAMAN DIAY ANG HELLO(POISON) KAY KUNG MAG PAKAMATAY KO GUSTO KO CLASSIC HEHEHE...

Curse Life..

2011-07-18T06:20:00.000+08:00

Frankly speaking I already lost any reason to feel in fact if someone stab me or if I am hit by a car I no longer care at all..
Maybe because I am born curse..

It is quite annoying having both parents hate you..
not just an ordinary hate but a hate that came from ever since you are born..
A hate that can be consider as a curse by the one being hated..

The thing is both parents aren't aware of the curse(hate) that they are inflecting to there child...
They hated being together that the child always wanted that they break off because every time something is wrong it always fall to the curse child..
Then add the stupid if not blindfolded siblings who doesn't really care since luck are at there sides and they are born bless..

This curse may be just a simple selfish defense against once self but what ever it is I am some how aware of it and its eating me inside out..

To my Demon Father who hated me ever since I was born in fact the first thing he did was to know if I am really his child..
If you love your work so much you could have made me abort(killed me) and now you blame everything to me to the life that you your self created..
You always said I had no future and i somewhat accepted it and know I am only living this life for the sake of watching you fall to the ground..
You Pathetic bastard I somewhat pity you truth to tell I fear your more than everything on this world, my fear of you surpass my fear of God..

To my Selfish mother who also hated me ever since I was born in fact he only let me live so she can get some financial assistance for herself..
You selfish bastard since your foreign boyfriend dump you , you went to my demonic father and know you suffer the result of your grave mistake..
You greedy whore you are already an old hag so stop acting like a damn 18 yr old girl and If you want to find another man please choose a single and not a married one damn you dumb stupid idiot mother..
You made my life quite miserable and now I am living my life just to see how much you suffer because of your own actions..

To my uncaring and worthless siblings..
I hope you enjoy our good for nothing family..
I wonder how long the both of you can pretend to have a good life..

TO my worthless, Pathetic, and curse Self
How long well you condemn your self into living into this unwanted world..
Are you still not tired of this worthless life?
Are you still afraid of killing your self?
Without your family you can never live in your own..

Such an annoying day..

What is a God?

2011-02-06T11:19:00.001+08:00

What is a God for me?
I had always know that God created every single thing..
I had always believe that one should worship the God one believes in..
I had always accept that God is every single thing..

But..

What is a God for them?
I had always see that God is a source of income and mischief to others..
I had always felt that they are all false pretending that a God is with them..
I had always know that only few among us really respect and see the truth of what a God really is..

But..

What is a God for the world?
I had always hear different Gods from different Stories..
I had always Thought that God excess only for those who can afford to donate big amount of riches..
I had always believe that the world never did need a God but just an system of a God to fool the rest of humanity..

But..

Is a God Good or Bad?
Is it good that we die and kill for our God..
Is it good that we forsake others who doesn't believe and follow our God..
Is It good that we pretend not to see that we can't be save ignoring reality..
Is it bad If we stop worshiping and just do what is right to survive..
Is it bad to live a life without god..
Is it bad if we don't trust the truth because it never existed in the first place..

For me all of the above I really don't care at all..
A God is only a God if you believe in it..
We just need someone that we need to be thankfull of..
We had been given a will of our one to chose what we needed to do..
Why blame the faults to others?
Why ask for forgiveness when one can never forgive?

Had we not given a Life by someone just to live and this cruel world?
Had we not chose to continue living in this cruel world ignoring the pain?

We had the will to chose from the very beginning..
We had Life to test our self and Death as our eternal escape..
So Don't be afraid how you live your life..
No matter how shameful and painful it well be..
Just remember that our God is merciful..
We have death to comfort us when everything around us fail us..

Welcome 2011, Happy New Year to all~

2011-01-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

This year I thought I should make a list of not to do anymore..
But I realize that would be useless since a hobby can't be forgotten in a single day..
First of all I had a sad new years eve..
My parents started a fight at exactly 12am at January 1..
The reason of the fight sounds silly so I don't need to put it here..
The truth was I am expecting a fight between them but I thought my father would confront her after new year I never expected the fight would happen at exactly new years eve..
In the End we never quite celebrated new year..
This is one of the reason why I don't like special occasions like this (including Christmas)..
They always find a reason to make this special day a bad one..

I spent the rest of my new year (january1) at my aunt's house..
I don't feel staying at my own house.. my father wasn't still done lecturing us..
The blame of the failure new year was giving to us siblings including my mother..
The truth was the conflict started with my father but then again it is of his nature to put the blame to others and not to him self.. He always find a reason to exclude himself from the blame..

I had always been the center of the fight between the two in past few years..
Now that I am older I can somehow understand my father and mother..
If only I wasn't born maybe they both have a happy and separate life..
I was the center of frustration, the center of blame, the center of hate, and the center of there life's failure..
So I can't blame them If they hate me that much..
I won't say why it is like that since I only write here to remind me of certain things..
I won't embarrass my family or put shame on them than I already have..

As what I always do I well write my New years poem..
It is for my own and for everyone who read and accept it as a message for 2011..,

An old book made New

I always read old books filled with life's stories

Since It made me remember my own life worries

Every year is like an old book revised to be new

Same old stories and yet something was added to view..

Every new year comes we tried to Skip the pages of truth

We filled our self with lies and hide the thing we couldn't fought

Why are we always excited when new year finally arrive?

When we are quite aware that nothing would be new in our daily Life

I guess since its in our nature to have little faith and hope

We failed to see that life has always been new

Everyday Is different and important times were few

Like a book our life needs someone to read..

Let your life not be a new book filled with lies

Instead find someone who can read your every files

Take notes if you find something wrong

And read it again but this time one must be strong..

That's it for my new year poem.. My message for 2011..
I hope people who reads it understand what it truly means..
I had a lot of doubts in this year..
I doubt If I could truly live a life this year but I well keep on trying..
As long as I am alive..
As long as this little fragile hope is still available..
I will try not to be dead this year...
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL~~

GoodBye 2010

2011-01-01T16:36:00.000+08:00

I was wondering what my life has been in 2010..
Then again I am still dead at that year so I think there is no life story to share..
Although I said I was dead that doesn't really mean lying in a grave..
rather what I mean was my life has been dull and null that there's nothing to tell..

As far as my memory could remember..
My life has been like A B C and D...
A I wake up and sleep
B I go to an Internet cafe and stayed for a few hours
C I eat and drink
D I watch TV or read something..

Spent all of my time inside the house sleeping..
I think I sleep 12-15 hours a day..*exaggerating?
I read a lot of novels..
I write a lot of story if I run out of novels to read..
In short I had live a life In my own Imaginary world..

I tried to go to work at my old boss back at 2009..
I thought I could handle it but after staying for a month I realize I still fear them..
In the end I failed a friend , that friend was my boss son..
I was hoping to use what I earned in there to find a more suitable job but
back at the house various problems occurred so I quit..
It was a psychological warfare both in my home and at work..
I think If I hadn't quit I might kill somebody..
But the truth is much more deeper and I think I shall keep it within my self..

What else had I forgotten... come on think leaf think D think F..think 3x
I watch a lot of anime's and read tons of Manga's..
What else...
I think there's nothing more left to tell or it is just that a lot happened
but since I had my own psychological problem I think I rather not tell..

Last but not the less I was hoping to die this year..
I mean I wanted to die this year like what I wanted to happened in 2009
but again I think I couldn't die yet..
I had always living a hopeless life but lately I found some little reason to continue..
I though it was foolish but then again maybe 2010 wasn't really that bad because
It was the year I had reason against my self and found a little hope within..
I rarely think negative now unlike the past that each of my action I always think negative results..
Its like a Pandora within me was open and I realize that despite my world of emptiness filled with darkness..
There was a little bright light.. so little that it can easy be ignored but when I look clearly to it..
I realize it might not be enough but it is something to start with..
I had always ask my self were to start after I give up on everything..
Within the confusion inside my self I had always been lost..
But maybe now that I was giving something to start with..
Although it might failed anytime and I might give up again..
This little fragile hope that I had found..
I well do my best not to break it..
And If I ever break it..
Then in 2011 I might again seek another reason to continue living..

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL~

2010-12-26T07:34:00.000+08:00

First of all I felt bad not writing anything at Christmas day..
I didn't had a chance to face the PC yesterday because of my empty Christmas..
It was pretty much boring and not worthwhile had happened..
We did have a Christmas party at church but that also ended worst..
Not much people came and because of it there were less to celebrate..

Today well be a celebration about families..
But My mother is away and I we hope she comes back today..
I felt bad yesterday since I had not receive any gifts..
Both of my sister receive some, why I am the only one who has none..

As always I'll make a Christmas Poem..
The only gift I could give to myself on this special day..

An Empty Presents

Its Christmas day and what had I receive?

A gifts without meaning that easily leave.

Its Christmas day and what should I expect?

A boring celebration out of obligation and respect.

In Christmas day can everyone laugh and be merry

Even if the world struggles and many felt sorry

In Christmas day our stomach had never been empty

Even others tried there best to live a life filled with worry

Have we forgotten the True meaning of Christmas day?

Is it just for us to be happy and attend many party.

Have we lost the true value of giving and receiving gifts?

Should it be expensive and filled with unnecessary things.

This Christmas giving a gift is the only things that we must do

A kind of gift that could be merry and true..

Not an empty Gift filled with this worlds emptiness

But a Gift that is so little but enough to share our happiness.

-Leafrust

Well that's it for my Christmas Poem..
This would remind me that this year Christmas has never been merry..
Instead it was pretty much dull and had increase my life's worry..
But who am I to say that Christmas is a bad day..
Maybe for me but for the world this day is a great day..
So all I can say is MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE~.

9th day and also the Final Day

2010-12-24T08:31:00.001+08:00

Finally no more waking up at 2:30AM..
Its the End of Mesa De Gallo and honestly speaking I sleep through out the mass..
So No Idea what the mass was about at the Final day..(stupid me) X3

So now Lets take a wish...

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10!

MY wish is to remember the wish I wanted to wish..
If I remember it let me remember it next year so that I can wish for it =)

Tomorrow would be Christmas~ but I am not that excited...
And today I made my stomach ache eating many food early in the morning..
They prepared a lot of chicken right after the mass..
Who Am I not to eat those taste Chickens..

8th Day of SG and also my B-Day~

2010-12-23T10:15:00.000+08:00

What a birthday..
First my mother run away or didn't come home.*no big deal she has been a problem in the start, ruined half or maybe all of my life..
Not much to say but my mother is really what you call an easy go where..
at an age of late 40 she is competing with my sisters in terms of passions and cloths..
Spent most of her money buying her own stuff and don't care if her children has some needs..

The mass today was about John the baptist birth..*not much to say about it..
It was fun at church everyone said happy birthday at me that made me a little bet embarrass..
I didn't receive any gift as usual.. all greetings and some money(and the money isn't that big to buy something nice).. I'm not expecting any party or celebration at home since mother just run away how can we celebrate..

As usual I make my self a poem as a gift..

Living a Dead Life

Am I dead because I no longer care about life?

Isn't it unfair to always lose on life's fight.

Am I dead since I no longer think of living

Since tomorrow is always dark as an evening..

Can I live if my Heart has been severely wounded

Not even a saint nor a doctor could get it healed.

Can I live if my soul had been so many times forsaken

In times of Trials it sleeps and can't be awaken

Every day is like an endless walk in an empty cemetery

I can't look at peoples face because they all look scary

Every day is like a nightmare in a dream of nothingness

An empty dream that has no hope of forgiveness

How I wish to lay asleep inside a coffin and never be awake

But I am a coward who's own life is hard to forsake.

How I wish that someone could make me dead

But one is strong when nothing could be save.

I no longer had any reason to keep on living

Since my life now has lost its meaning.

I no longer care of others and also to myself

Since I hated my self and can't love others for it.

Let me see that very little light in my world of darkness

It is the only hope I had in my life filled of emptiness.

Let me keep this little courage I had found in deaths valley

It is the only strength I had to hide all my life's worry

Finally I wanted to make a wish on this day

That let me live for another day without feeling sorry

For Had I not live a life filled with misunderstandings and guilt

And for it I hope I can forgive my self and let it all forget..

-Leafrust

Its quite long but its OK since its my birthday anyway..
Its 2 days before Christmas..
Let this day remind me always that My birthday is one of my worst day ever..

7th Day

2010-12-22T08:28:00.002+08:00

I'm kind of in a rush so I'll make it short..
I was pissed off at the church to day..
But after that there's nothing new..
Tomorrow is my Birthday *sigh* hope I can Skip that day..

6th Day Of Simbang Gabi

2010-12-21T08:19:00.000+08:00

only 2 days before my B-day then
3 days before Noeche Buena and
Finally 4 days before Christmas..

Not much to expect although other people would find this day exciting.
I find it dull since I don't like this kind of events (especially my B-day)..

Ordinary days of Simbang Gabi unlike yesterday..
It was a total disaster yesterday and I couldn't count the unlucky things that happened..

And as usual no more people in the streets..
I wonder maybe only few can complete it XD..

5th day of SImbang Gabi( unlucky day!?)

2010-12-20T07:11:00.000+08:00

First of all it was raining in here...
Then no car so we walk for 30 min..
Very cold even if you wear a jacket..
And very sleepy, my left eye hurt pretty much..

And something happen at church that I don't want to put..
We all got annoyed by it including my father..
After that it was still raining like cats and dogs..

The worst part was another fucking brown out for 5mins..
Damn those scum electric companies..
It ruin my day..
And I pay the original price even though I just use the PC for 8min?(I think its 5min)
Fuck the flat rate u stupid Sequel in OBRERO taking advantage of the brown out!!
damn I am really pissed off today my day was greatly ruined!!

4th Day of Simbang Gabi

2010-12-19T08:52:00.000+08:00

"Mesa De Gallo" - I just learn that its Gallo not Galeo since it means roster XD

IDK what the mass is about today since I wasn't listening (To bad) or honestly speaking I was a little bet sleepy..
but it was surprising to see a lot of people in the church and in the streets walking right after the mass..
well its Sunday so I guess people usually go to church during this day..

On the other hand we got lucky a friend of my dad pass us by and give us a ride all the way through the church..

Still All thanks to Mr.Alarm clock for waking me up and I did wake up in fact I was the one who wake the others up by making some noise haha.. XD

3rd Day of SG

2010-12-18T07:14:00.000+08:00

Its the 3rd day and like yesterday , I only see few people attending the mass.
The mass today is about the hesitation of Joseph to marry Mary as his wife.
Not much to say but I wanted to Shout out loud the Stupid BROWN OUT!!
Damn those corrupt electric Companies.. There doing this to earn more money..

Hope this day would be like the other day..
I would like to say Thank you to Mr.Alarm Clock for waking us early..

2nd Day of Simbang Gabi~

2010-12-17T07:07:00.000+08:00

2nd Day of Simbang Gabi A.k.a (Mesa De Galeo)

Today's mass was about the list of descendants up to Joseph which was Jesus father..
But the thing that captures my attention was the people attending mass..
Yesterday was the 1st day and the street and almost all the churches here was crowded by people..
But today I only see few of them.. What happened to those people?
My father said that most of those people attend the first day out of curiosity while the others believe that the 1st day was the day where you could take a wish..

Anyway we woke up the same time (all thanks to the alarm clock*thank you Mr.clock)
I attend the 2nd day good luck for tomorrow.~

BTW I didn't sleep much or did I really sleep.. I remember that I close my eyes around 12am the next thing I know it was 2 am then after that Mr.clock woke me up XD

SIMBANG GABI (Mesa De Galeo?)

2010-12-16T06:48:00.001+08:00

Simbang Gabi(Mesa De Galeo?) idk if this is what it is in spanish..

Lol 1st day of December 16,2010..
I wonder why many people well wake up early just to attend the mass..
Maybe because they are just being relegious or maybe because of the old legend saying that if you completed the 9 mass then your wish well be granted..
For me last year I did complete it and guess what my wish did come true..
Although it is quite simple my wish last year is that I can still live for the next year..
And yeah I am still Freaking alive..

We woke up at 3:00Am(with the help of the Alarm Clock) then we walk for 30min to our mini church(since theres still no cars around so early) and the mass started around 4:00AM..

I wonder If I can survive the next 8 days but I know I can do it since I have no reason not to..
I wonder what well be my wish for this year..?
Good Morning..~ Time check 7:00AM XD

Wtf? have I been doing this year?

2010-12-02T06:24:00.000+08:00

First thing first not much of a change same old zombie like last year..
Its already December but I ain't expecting much although my B-day is in December I kind of hated it the worst day for me...
Why the hell am I writing now?(hell?) no good reason I just realize how foolish my existence was.
No matter how hard I try I could never accomplish anything(did I ever try in the first place)
Been watching a lot of Anime and Movie's lately.. And been a Manga Addict the whole year..
I can't even remember the title's much less the characters. I can't remember how many manga's I already read.

Well I finish I nice Anime today and was hoping for a 2nd season although I am not expecting to much of a continuation of it..

http://anime-media.com/highschool-of-the-dead-episode-12/#comment-212650

You might wonder what so good about this? well first of all everyone likes the idea of the End of the world.
We might not admit it but its our only escape through reality. Although not all agreed but you must consider that not all people live a good and reasonable life. Some are like me while others are much worse. I am still lucky that I hadn't yet committed Suicide (I'm still weak and Afraid).
Watching this give us an illusion of how the world might end and trust me this is one of the favored genre. I mean the world could end in natures way or nuclear war or something like that.
This Zombie thing well I kind of lazy to explain since I know each has different way of viewing it.

I been reading a lot of Japanese related articles lately listening to there musics.
I am still playing browse base online game like Kungfu online but most of the games are inside Facebooks application..

The first Blog in 2010 in I wrote it at the last month!
I don't know how much I can hold on or how much my state of mind can handle so I think I well start writing although I am a pretty boring person I well try my very best (Go Leafy)!

BTW I LOVE JAPAN without it Anime and Manga would never exist!

Happy New Year~

2010-01-01T09:19:00.000+08:00

Happy New year to all.. even though I am feeling sleepy and not well it is still a new year.
After this I need to attend the new year mass. I don't have much to say since nothing much to tell on what happened to 2009. Its just the same as always. Time Check Jan.1 2009 @ 9:42AM

Nothing New

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To waste such celebration of joy

And play a game with shameful toy

Should we always do what we wanted

Or change the things we pretend

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For we don't know what would come

So why not smile as we all welcome

This years struggle has not been the beginning

But just a continuation of what has always been happening

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Truth or Lies has always been the same

Even Good and Bad has its own shame

So there is nothing new worth changing

For we live a life of unnecessary acting

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!

2009-12-25T15:15:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all!! Its December 25,2009 @ 3:55 PM =P
It was a fun Christmas unlike last year where I spent it alone.
Today we had some party after the mass and then exchanging gifts(even though mine was useless) and It was really fun. But it really isn't that great since yesterday my grandmother died so its kind of sad. Well any way its Christmas so the least we can do is celebrate.

Merry Christmas

It should be a Season Of giving
And yet why do some are still suffering

It is a day to love one another
But still the war around us isn't over

It would be nice to know
That everyone has something to show
but rather give a present out of fools
why not smile from your hearts tools

For Christmas should be for everyone
And for those whom are always alone
Seek someone at the place you call home
And maybe you well see a gift in your room

A gift isn't a thing to be seen or kept
but rather something that we can openly accept
For the happiest being are those who secretly cries
And the sad ones are those who always smile

This Christmas don't keep what you receive
And share what other had failed to deceive
Since we are thank full with in our every soul
So a Happy Merry Christmas To all.

A GOOD or BAD day?

2009-12-24T07:33:00.000+08:00

Finally I had finished attending the Simbang Gabi(no English lol) and the good part was My Birthday ended without having any special meaning.
My wish is for me to keep, I don't feel like sharing lol but all I can say is its not a materialistic wish.
Now for the Bad part was our Grandmother in my father side Died today at 3A.m.
We receive a call from one of my Aunts who live there. Now we have no choice but to go there even though I don't feel like traveling. But still to show my respect I should attend I guess.

Farewell

I would not say I am sad

even though I really feel bad

I would not show a single Tear

For my heart has always been in fear

In front of your grave I would stay

And say I simple words to pray

But time would never be gay

And your memory would be there to say

Those cheerful words of wisdom

And those funny jokes of freedom

Is something we well never forget

As Time is something we can not get

-Leafrust

My Birthday~

2009-12-23T09:03:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. not much to say about this..not much happened no party just some greetings. No gifts just some money. But I had expecting this since I hadn't had a formal celebration for the past 5-6years I think. The last Birthday that we really celebrated was when I am in the 6Th grade.
I usually like to spend my birthday alone since it would be to much of a bother to others. Greetings are already enough but I hardly had some. Most of them doesn't remember but that would be alright its not It is worth remembering. My some poem well do since when I make one I really don't know what I am writing not until it is done.BTW its December 23,2009 today since my blog time is a wrong so time check would be 10:24AM.

My Birthday Poem

Today is another ordinary day
A day where I can never stay
To A place where I could be Free
Is the only wish I could never See

But life has always been changing
And one seems blindly seeking
Freedom is a misguided word
Since we are born prisoner in this world

I had been asking a lot of questions
And yet most of it has known solutions
But I just don't like to recognize
The life I failed to Organize

I am lost and has always been blue
Since I always fear of what was true
But should I do what I fear the most?
And suffer the true meaning of being lost

Is Being born a curse not known
Or another Illness this world had not shown
but then again life has always been a big unknown
And had given us a life we could never own

A year had been added
Another path would be guided
But still to live another year
Means to face ones own fear

-Leafrust

Simbang Gabi~

2009-12-16T06:41:00.000+08:00

first day of Simbang Gabi (seriously I don't know whats the English of this word) or Mesa De Gallo . Dec 16, 2009..
We woke up as early as 3 am and arrive at our mini church in 5am and the mass started 15min later. I am not the religious type of person but why did I attend? well there was this old saying that if you completed attending this mass then a certain wish would be granted by heaven. Sounds crazy right? but trust me I really love to believe crazy stuffs. The mass lasted in an hour and after that we had our usual feast, just some bread(different kinds of them) and some coffee as our drinks.
And I forgot to mention that my father was the one who was doing the mass(his the priest) and everyday we had 2-3 mass. Every mass has a feast after it so eat, eat and eat...
Not much to to write though since my last blog was about my last day of my job and here I am now waiting to be approve of the job I am currently applying.
December seems a month were one could easily get fat. In here we can eat as much as we wanted since that is how the teaching of the church ordered to my father.
Then a week from now my Birthday would arrive. Not much of a day to celebrate since I am not really good on celebrating my B-day. I would rather stay asleep so that I can skip that day.
Then there is Christmas and New years Eve. *sigh* definitely one busy month.
The date on the blog seem different.. O well I don't now how to redo it lol.

First Time quitting a job..

2009-10-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

Yes Finally after 4 months of having my first job I finally quit..
The job is not really hard you won't be tired physically but really your mind would go down fall..
Its a mental warfare where the boss has very loud noise and sometime if not always the boss quarrel with the customers. I personally love the work I can easily neglect the hot tempered boss but still 4months of improper sleep and mental stress really made me tired. And the bond there is so freaking scary as if they would do something to me if I quit. Now need to find a new job. And I also lied so that I can quit the job, that would be stupid but I had no choice If I really wanted to quit. Well lying is part of being human as long as you won't make it a hobby.
lol I was always thinking what to do after I quit then today I had not sleep and stayed awake playing, watching anime, and reading manga. although I finished reading some manga and anime I am still unsatisfied. why? maybe because I am still human. Annoying as it seems I have no choice unless I want to kill my self then I am no longer living. For 4 months I had imprison my self and hope that if I quit this job I would be free but I wonder if that is still possible.
((10/17/09 5:21 pm)@J1 Sandawa Net-X)

Happy Birthday..

2009-07-10T15:00:00.001+08:00

Here I am again at this day
To great you in a joyful way
Since it is the day I should be Thankful
because you had always been wonderful.

It might be one sided and selfish
but rest assured I am no fetish
A promise I made with my self out of stupidity
To continue even if it has no meaning for eternity.

As always I am your stranger out of blue
A person who's character and face you have no clue.
But I am no stalker who wants to be near you,
I am just me who thinks about you..

So sad to think that a gift I cannot give
and hope you have plenty to receive
If none then don't be deceive
Your life is the best gift you had ever receive..

If you are alone in the edge of darkness
Just spread your wings in the sky of loneliness.
And you will see the world is not yours to have
but rather it is the only thing your heart could love..

Hated, Envy, Jealousy ,Loneliness, Feeling worthless,
and thought that you are the very meaning of darkness.
Then think of me as weaker than you,
Since you are my only Angel above the sky so blue..

Happy Birthday a simple words I could easily say
And Be happy and content on this very day.
Special or not I am no where to stay,
Just s single smile is enough for thats the only wish For you I could pray..

First of all this is dedicated to my one and only Angel..Happy Birthday!!
Funny since I always admire her don't know why..( And his a total stranger to me)
will I am that kind of a person.. I hope you could also read this..
The reason I think why I never approach her was not because I am very shy(although its one of the reason) maybe because If I befriend here then the word stranger would be lost.. lol I am really weird hahaha to like someone for more than 7-8years? and never tried to meet her even though I had plenty of opportunities and time.. All my message for your Birthday had been said at my poem.. then again I am bad with english so please be patient to understand it :P..

-Leafrust

Leafrust

2009-07-10T15:00:00.000+08:00

Imagine a Single Leaf in a tree
If it fall would it be free?
If it stay would one can see
A lonely leaf that has no right to be free..

Have you been happy this day?
A joyful heart I had always Envy..
You who had some friends to comfort your heart,
Mine is a single curse where everything had start..

You who had been not known
The only thing I wish to own
And yet you had been born
To a place where I could not return..

How long had I been like this,
This memory I could not dismiss.
Years may had past when I first look at you,
And still here I am who don't know what to do..

Such a fool to understand my soul
much worst is my hunger like a ghoul,
And yet I wish not to eat,
Since it will show my one and only defeat..

To smile with an empty feeling,
And laugh with a heart that is crying.
A single soul not worth remembering,
A child I am born with selfish misunderstanding..

I live a world I had known
And yet one self can't be shown
Since it is created by my own
A world filled with lies and unknown..

Why has always been my question,
And No has been my Inspiration
But still my heart has no objection
To a life that is near once destruction..

Would It End If one is gone and Disappear,
Or rather continue with the punishment of a reaper.
A punishment that has no pain nor suffering,
Just an eternal darkness of everything..

It has been 2 months since I write something at my lonely blog..
well I had been busy lately I got my self I job that best fit my computer time..
I can now log in 4-6 hours at the price of half since I am just using pc inside an internet cafe..
I also became I quiet addicted in reading manga..
well The reason I blog today is to write some poem because a special someone is having a birthday.. as always I feel writing a poem about her..
Even though my English is Bad.. hey I am doing my very best here hahaha..

2009-05-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

Series Info

Title: Ichigo 100%
Alternate Title: Strawberry 100%
OM Rank: 51
Categories: anime, comedy, ecchi, harem, romance, shounen

Author: Mizuki Kawashita

Artist: Mizuki Kawashita

Chapters: 167 - completed

Summary

Manaka Junpei, one day goes to the roof of his school to get a beautiful view of his town. On the roof Junpei encounters a beautiful school girl who falls on top of him exposing her strawberry panties. The girl runs away before Junpei can find out her name. Junpei who aspires to become a filmaker thinks this encounter would be a perfect scene in a movie. So his search to find this girl begins with only one clue that she wears strawberry panties.

Taken From OneManga.com [Click Here]

Leafrust,

Lol, first of all this is definitely without doubt one of the best so far.. I had finish reading this 3 days ago and today I had finish watching this in Anime since I can't wait to see the difference between anime and manga which is sad to say but Manga is still the best..

Manaka was really something a character which is really funny.. with all the beautifull girls around him choosing one would really be a sin.. And he is also dedicated to his dream(which I had none At the moment) *speechless* overall really something especially the ending I had never guess it right I neglected all the hint after the ending and at the end I could shake hands with the author he gave a natural and perfect ending.. Maybe many would dis agree but It was really good..

The Anime is really bad even though the OVA's is really something but the anime is just half I don't know what happen but the creator of the Anime didn't finish the overall story..

Will I must stop reading Manga since I am doing this for 2 weeks now and its not really good for a person who doesn't like reality to much.. If I where in a very bad mental state I would commit suicide after reading it because that would be a nice story to remember before a death..

I was satisfied with the ending and I would like reading it again.. And I had been watching Suzuka anime I hope to finish it sooner or later.. I might be alone at the moment but that doesn't mean I can easily kill my self.. I really hate the way I think I am what you can call am idiot Being.. I am smart enough to live such useless life.. maybe because I am still looking and with some little silly dream I am still continue living.. Read it I promise a tear drop after you done reading it lol..

-Leafrust

A life I could never have?

2009-04-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

Series Info

Title: Suzuka
OM Rank: 82
Categories: anime, drama, ecchi, romance, school life, shounen

Author: Seo Kouji

Artist: Seo Kouji

Chapters: 167 - completed

Summary

Yamato is ready for a fresh start. So when his aunt invites him to stay rent-free in her big-city boarding house in hustling, bustling Tokyo, Yamato jumps at the chance. There's just one teensy-weensy catch: It's an all-girl housing complex and spa! Things get even more nerve-racking when Yamato meets his neighbor Suzuka, a beautiful track-and-field star. She's not just the cutest girl Yamato's ever met, she's also the coolest, the smartest, and the most intimidating. Can an ordinary guy like Yamato ever hope to win over a girl like Suzuka?

Taken From OneManga.com (thank god this site exist)[http://www.onemanga.com/Suzuka/]

Leafrust,

Well another Sunday of reading manga whole day again (I guess I should stop doing this every Sunday) but then again I have nothing left to do and I really wanted to finish reading this after I started this 3-4 days ago? *sigh* I didn't do anything great in High School In fact I didn't do anything at all.. I never think of dating or liking someone (my Biggest Mistake) I did like some one back there but I have Zero confidence.. I never have made a serious bond with people maybe I really suck at that part.. Never had good friends I had nothing at all.. maybe I had but all of them are gone now..

I am so pathetic but hey what can I do I am born this way the more I tried to change the more I become much more worse to the point I never no where to start.. Since I never had what they call a good and understanding Family.. So far as I can remember my Family only cares what others say and made me the number 1 insulting person in the family..

Such a Pity this story Ends but I said to myself I need to finish this today no matter what.. Since the more I read The more loneliness I would feel.. reading about This kind of story and watching happy images that we all know very far from reality and yet so near of what we call real..

I had always love japan and always thinking what it is feel like living there.. always love Japanese girls because no matter how you look at them they always are very cute..

Even though it is just a day of reading around 7hrs but it is all worth ed.. It seems I had watch a life of 3-4 years.. A life I could never have..

At the End they live happily ever after like other love story ends but then again I already knew that, I just wanted to know how that word "Love" can made the story so great and yet that word seems so far or yet very impossible for me to acknowledge..

In the End I am really happy and Contented.. But the more of this I read the more of my emotion would shut down making me more insensitive..

But then Again It was nice to finished this story.. My best regards and congratulation to the new married couple Yamato and Suzuka and to there baby fuku I am happy for the both of you..

-Leafrust..

An escape to reailty..

2009-04-19T17:17:00.000+08:00

Series Info
Title: Girls Saurus DX
OM Rank: 143
Categories: comedy, ecchi, harem, mature, school life

Author: Kusunoki Kei

Artist: Kusunoki Kei

Chapters: 46 - ongoing - irregular

Summary-Shingo Chiryuu isn't much different than any other guy except for one thing... He's afraid of girls. Now he finds himself surrounded by girls, including the one whose attack originally instilled the fear in him, as he attempts to cure himself of his gynophobia.

(taken from Onemanga.com[http://www.onemanga.com/Girls_Saurus_DX/])

The best way to escape reality is by reading books but now a days manga is much more better..

What I can say about this?? hmmm well first of all this is ecchi means so many nude picks around but for perverted people this would be there dream world but I didn't read this just for nude but well I would be lying if that wasn't one of the reason I read this.. First of all this manga is really funny and I rarely laugh so laughing really means so much for even if I am just laughing alone..

Sad to say this manga isn't finish but I am looking forward of reading the rest of the story..Its really funny and you won't get bored..

Today is Sunday which mean I have more time to be alone than ordinary days.. I should go to church today with my family but I prepared to be alone.. My reason is simple, why go to church when I will obviously go to hell since suicide is the very worst immortal sin and the only assurance that I would go to hell..

well its nice to escape reality for awhile I just found this manga yesterday and I promise to finish it reading to day its like entering a new world and I got a good spot in this cafe everything seems perfect today..

but after this I will be going back to reality.. I have no friends to talk to.. my Family never understands me since I am master of insensitivity.. I am nobody.. I am worst than trash and pretty useless..

I am Leafrust..

A sunday of loneliness..

2009-03-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

Sunday is usually a fun day for peers, families, and other people but for me its a whole day of loneliness..
Its not really a big deal because I had chosen to leave this kind of life..
A life with out any friends.. A life that stays away to other people..
why? maybe because life has never been great for me..
I got a very awkward family whom I can't be proud of..
I have no friends but others would think that's not possible but its true..
Friends..
I got friends when I was in elementary and they are to many to tell but now I don't hear a single words of what happened to them after I entered High School..
I also got some friends in High School but since I spend most of my time in front of TV playing computer games or in front of a PC also playing online games so I rarely have serious friends..
So after I graduated in High School and went to college, 1 by 1 all my High School friends disappear.. even my closest friends disappear not a single word from them..
Finally at college its not that lonely at first because I meet some friends(again) but again after a few year when I stop going to college because of financial problem I never hear a single words from them..It was really a memorable experience in college because its the first time I went to the beach with so many friends..Attend so Birthdays and debuts .. went to there houses.. and so on.. but after I left the school I never heard a word form them..
maybe because I am use of living this lonely life..
And I forgot to mention I never had a childhood friends(maybe I got some but just forgotten)..
My Sunday life has been like this for the past 2 years after I left college..
early in the morning I eat with my family after that I go to some Internet cafes and stay there until it gets dark.. then went home.. I don't like to went back early because I will only see lazy people and I am always get scolded and insulted because of there laziness..
I really hate being scolded when I had no fault at all..
I got 2 lazy sisters but my Father always tell that I am the laziest of them all even do I always do the dishes, cook the food, do some laundries, and etc..
They are like princess in our house..
Sometimes I went to the church with them (I only go if my mother go with them but if not I won't go either) I really don't like that church we are attending at the moment due to the fact that my father is the priest in that church and even after the mass there are free foods I still don't want to go there..
will I really hope this would be my last year since I am really bored of my stupid life..
My Life has always been Like a Leaf that had been waiting to rust and can't do anything about it..

New year poem..

2009-02-15T13:04:00.000+08:00

For how many years has been new..
am I still one of the few ..
that never change my hearts point of view..
And its not easy to be a shadow of your existance..
just imagine a different world from a distance..
As your stranger I am just passing by..
Because I have no right to stand at your side..
For I can only make actions through words..
I am but your humble leaf..
still waiting to be pick..
Or just rust like a simple trick..
I well be your admirer for eternity..
because I am just a shadow filled with stupidity..
-Leafrust

one of my new years poem.. =D

(originaly created at the very first day of january..)

2009-02-15T12:25:00.000+08:00

Undergoing MyBlogLog Verification

Another Stupid Poem..

2009-02-15T08:30:00.000+08:00

"I'm In love with an Angel"

I once admired an Angel

But hated my self to realize..

That it was impossible for her to recognize

for loving her would be a great deal of lies..

For she was like the Sun

And I am but a water..

If I tried to go near her

I will evaporate and disappear..

III

Am I to much ugly for her

Such a loser like they always tell

A dumb being that could never spell

hating me would be her will..

Her Charm has always been powerful

Am I so useless to stand and fall..

Have I no right to be near

And only at distance to watch her..

She has always been an Angel

All perfection for me to tell..

And no girl can defeat her beauty

For in my heart she had always been pretty..

I'm in love with an Angel

And would she hate me if she ever knew?

So I tried to keep it a secret..

between her and everyone I knew..

VII

I dedicated this poem to whom I once loved and cared

But I am such a swore loser that always failed..

And even If I shouted out loud, It will be like a whisper that no one could hear..

My words that says

"I'm In love to an Angel that can never stays"

The original was first given to that Angel in valentines day and like always I failed ha ha ha..

This poem was recreated today by me and I will send this again to that Angel..(I wonder If she would remember)..

That was like 5-6 years ago and my note of poems is still alive..

I remember the days my peer use to call me the hopelessly romantic poet at school ha ha ha

I am really an ugly student during that time (and even now) nothing change all of them succeed and I am left to rust..

Friends always go away living me an absconding..

"Absconded Valentines to All"

My Valentines Poem..(Absconded)

2009-02-15T07:55:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentines to Every one

Cupids are gathered to feed

And to shot your heart they need.

So your love will awaken from sleep

Came up from the ocean so deep.

Today is a happy day to call

The time of love we always recall

So find your partners of heart and soul

Because If you don't you will be a fool

III

The day of Love has Finally come

Arisen with laughter and fun

This mystic ways can't be undone

Because without love life will be easily gone.

Because love is one of the special way

why life should be long to stay

The affection found from tender feeling

A true and faithful loving.

Love is so great and powerful

That no magic could fulfill

only heart and souls will

The ancient way for them to tell.

For those who are heart broken

build up your heart that was fallen.

The way of love can't be stolen

Just make your selves always open.

VII

Open so someone could enter

And might of mystic love it will offer

Just accept and don't hesitate

True love that was lead by fate.

VIII

So come and enjoy this day

Its once in a year to stay.

Because for those whom have true love it will soon die

The way fate had always tried.

For today love is alive

So we must celebrate with joy and hope

May love be long to be done

Happy Valentines to Everyone..

-Lefras

It was the poem I compose when I was in 3rd year..
I made it because Valentines was coming near so I guess it makes
a difference to participate for it once..(lies* ha ha ha it was for the poem
project XD)
My English teacher loves it but I really don't care as long as
she gave me decent grades..
after all I really hated February..
This is also the time I started sending letter at my crush but
all failed..
I am such a loser ha ha ha
not to mention very stupid.. The word would be "Super Torpe ha
ha ha"
"Absconded Valentines to everyone"

February(A cursed month?)

2009-02-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

yeah I know February is a great day for lovers yet is it really that great?
what I mean is what happened to those who are loveless?
just make me an example..

My life (story time..)
February is always a cold month(like December) because I never really celebrated it..
why? since I never had a girl friend since birth.. ha ha ha funny yes but I am really serious..
again the word why? because I never found the right girl(Lie its a lie).. when I was in High school I really fall in love with a certain girl yet I never had the courage to confront here..
Stupid? yes pretty much but that's me.. I being who has the confident below 0..
And after that every time I see a girl I always compare them to her..(lets call her Angel..duh?)
You see the fact is I never befriend Angel.. why?(the 3rd) because I have no courage to go near her..(I am really a swore loser)..
I tried dating.. but all failed..
I am such a loser to the fact that I always felt the ugliest person who ever lives..
So lets go back to February..
yes this is also the month of proms(which really sucks big time)..
Maybe I am the only person in the entire world that sucks in Prom night ha ha ha..
So February is really like a cursed month for me..
(To be continue..)

So much of the story..
Good luck to all the losers around the world..
I am just here to say you are not alone ha ha ha..

lets just see what will happened to my life in the following days..
Hope I survive this Cursed month..

"How I wish February Ends.. Since this is the months of Love and hearts are very happy around.. And yet for me it is the month that always make me an absconded being"

Heroes..

2009-02-11T17:59:00.000+08:00

'Heroes' Recap: Episode 3.15 "Trust and Blood"
Read it here @http://www.buddytv.com/articles/heroes/heroes-recap-episode-315-trust-26263.aspx?cf=1048576

If you are an avid fans of heroes then you would surely read this..
Its is a spoiler to some so I don't advise everyone to read just to people who wants to be spoiled..

heroes are aired at the Philippines every Monday at CS9 and last Monday season 3 just ended "Heroes Season 3 Villains" and Season 4 is coming yet at the other side of the world season 4 has already started with 2 episodes..

I am also currently watching Smallville and Supernatural..

but in CS9 Mondays is my favorite day since I watch Eureka, Heroes, and Fringe :)

you can also register at BuddyTv. to view more of your favorite episodes..

"How I wish February Ends.. Since this is the months of Love and hearts are very happy around.. And yet for me it is the month that always make me an absconded being"

The Dog was saved..

2009-02-07T17:34:00.000+08:00

Where should I start telling the story..

First It had been my first time to go to a dog pound so I already expected the worst scenario
So many things in my head like what if the dog was killed because the keeper was annoyed by him.. or maybe they just feed our dog to some hungry crocodile.. or the dog was killed by some dog with it inside the cage..

People from Davao dogs that are captured are sent to Maa near Davao City jail..
The easiest way to go there is if you have a car or take a taxi..
Taxi fare would be around 55-60php for 3-5km.
The Dog can be claimed around 9:00AM-4PM Monday-Friday and 9:00am-11:00am on Saturdays..( but to tell you the truth the keeper is always an hour late)
The Fee for claiming the dog would be 250Php for its first day then additional 50 php per day..
The Dog that hasn't been claimed for 3 days would be put to sleep..( But don't worry if your Dog is a good breed instead of killing it they would surely sell it)
The dog would be killed using a gas they called it mercy killing..(Don't be afraid its just a frank to scare the owner they would never do that to the dog)
The fact is your Dog won't die in gas but in hunger since the Dog pound NEVER give food nor give them water so your Dog would surely Die from hunger and thirst..
Rumors was spread that dead dogs are feed to the crocodile since the Dog pound was said to be near a crocodile farm..
Inside the Dog pound you can see 11 or more cages with a size that would be 20X20 meters (not quite sure) or maybe smaller..
The place it self is just small(my room is much bigger) and pretty dirty if your dog was healthy then it would be very sick inside..
Inside the cage there are around 6-7 dogs( just imagine those poor dogs)
And the Dog pound is also near a slaughter house (with my imagination I would say some dead dogs are slaughter then there meats are sold at the market hahaha)

Going back to my story..
After I arrive at the Dog pound I meet an owner and his dog was also captured..
We waste our time by talking to our dogs since no one is around and the keeper was very late..
We waited like 2hours but since his much earlier than me I think he waited 3 hours..
The processing was fast after the keeper arrive he lead us to the dogs then he let us Identify the dog by making us call there names and with a response they would mark the dogs as ours.
Then he gave us receipts to be paid at the slaughter house just 300meters away..
After we paid we then go back there to get our dogs.
It was easy for the other owner to get his dogs but for me we really had a hard time because my dog was really scared and won't go out at the cage..
Then finally we manage to lure my dog out I pulled him at the cage and I wasn't afraid with the other dogs (I do realize later that what I did was dangerous what if those dogs bite my hand)..
I chained him and we set off to the main road it was 1km away from the pound..
Then we waited some Taxi then after that we arrive home..
Our Dog was really scared as if he has a phobia with people, we feed him with lots of bones and foods but the dog only eat little then hide under a bed..

I don't know what happened to our dog when he was inside the Dog pound but we are pretty sure that our Dog wasn't treated will..
Dogs might be animals but those people inside the pound are more of an animal than them whom was inside the cage..
What happened to Animal rights? will I also ask that my self but since that place was founded by the mayor it self then everything happening there is legal..
And its not a good idea to go against the mayor especially if the mayor you are talking to is the mayor of Davao City..

Lets just hope heaven would punish them or they will get bad karma for their actions..

To end this story I am glad that I saved our dog in time :)

Bad day?(The day our dog was captured)

2009-02-06T17:14:00.001+08:00

It has always been a bad day everyday for me but today I could say I really feel the presence of having a bad day..
Same as usual I do my daily action but today I was really careless..
I was taking an errand and went to the market that I neglected our dog outside our house..
I saw the dog along the road some meters away from our house and just thought * that ain't that far maybe it would be fine*
later I realize that was A huge mistake since after i got home from the market I later known or my neighbors told me that our dog was captured by the City Dog pound and if we want our dog back we need to pay an amount of 500php..
Now I need to find City Veterinarian Dr. Armando Barbadillo and beg for my dog to be free..
But I have no Idea where to start looking for him since dogs that are captured would be killed in 3 days..
That was base on this report http://www.pia.gov.ph/?m=12&sec=reader&rp=1&fi=p040217.htm&no=2&date=02/17/2004
To Dabawenyos this is a thread where owners say there experience when there dog was captured http://www.davaosale.com/phpBB2/viewtopic.php?t=122241&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=75

Dog pounds is really a horrible place for dogs..
But did the government care?
Even the people in that places are very heartless as if they are more animals than the dogs inside the cage..
As mentioned if you read the thread some of the dogs have owners in there sides and they just let there dog out to breath some air but those EVIL dog catchers are just watching they just captured those dogs brutally even if the owners are around..
My father just said that he was like crying when seeing our dogs eyes because he can't do a thing the man who captured our dog just shouted.."if you want your dog back pay for it"..

Hope I can do something about that dog..
That dog is really friendly he use to welcome me every time I arrive at our house..
We named him Noah we also had another dog named Lyka..
We adapted Noah around 3-5months ago when a heartless person left him at the road..
may people saw that dog but they are all afraid and in the end my sister beg to my father to adapt that dog..
That dog is really lively after we took care on it..
I use to watch that dog and let him out at our house very early around 5-6 am to poo or piss..
then house arrest him..
But some times that dog has its own way to escape our house..

Tomorrow I will do my best to get that dog back..

Wish me luck !

The Legacy Of Holy Castle

2009-02-02T18:33:00.000+08:00

Review of The Legacy of the Holy Castle

by Leafrust

It has been so long since I last played a browse based online games but when I discovered this game everything started to change. I accidentally found this game when I was surfing through the net and just before I knew it , I already registered my self and started playing the game. At first I was a little bit confused but thanks to their novice quest I didn’t had a hard time trying to understand the game. You wouldn’t be lost and left confuse once inside the game because the game advisers are always ready to guide you through out the game, and not to mention hospitable players that would never neglect a novice asking questions.

New users are protected by the game for 4 days and rest assured that the game has given you enough time to familiarize and be prepared for what has yet to come. After 4 days be ready because you well now enter a world filled with wars and a never ending twist of different kinds of strategies that you would never imagine possible.

Let me introduce the 4 important resources that help each players through out the game , namely the Gold, Wood, Food, and Gem. Gold and Food can be obtained by building mines and farms or when you conquer other castle you’ll get 75% of their Gold for 24hours. Wood can be lumbered by heroes in the mission system. Gems can be Obtained by selling treasures, equipments, jewels, and other sell able products. You can also buy gems through their main website by using cash like dollars and euros.

There are also 4 different kinds of missions through out the game. First is Lumbering and by doing so a single hero increases the wood production of your castle base on his wisdom. Next we have Training allowing certain hero to gain less experience but without risking any defeats. Then we have Search that enable each heroes the chance to obtain Gold, Foods, woods, and some rare treasures. And Finally we have Adventures, Its a 1 on 1 fight against Npc’s in different levels and also the only way to obtain jewels. Jewels were used to make special kinds of equipments and rare stones. You could also sell them to gain some gems.

The Battle system of this game well definitely challenge each players mind by allowing them to think as many different kinds of formations and strategies that would grant them total victory. The game also proves that no matter how strong your opponent well be you could always out smart him. Example:(http://holy3.webmmo.com/report1.jsp?id=7688714855967442632920)

The game also had an Alliance system that had a maximum of 50 members. For me Alliance help their members from being bullied and assuring that each members would grow strong enough to defend its own castle.

Its been a good experience for me to play this game so I am helping others to let them know that such game exist. My words may not be that convincing but rest assure you would definitely like this game.

When you start playing feel free to ask anything from me for I will always try my very best to help you on your journey through out the game.

If your Interested just use this link to play @http://holy3.webmmo.com/index.jsp?ref=837

or when you register type my Promoter ID: lefras.pk

If the first link failed you can also try this one @http://www.webmmo.com/index.php?ref=206158

Leafrust

2009-02-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

“LêÂFRüsT”

Their was once a leaf that grows in every tree..
As a prisoner who can never be free..
And It would die alone, where no one would see..
Such Leaf has a life like me.

An Omniscient being colored it with green..
A color that was fetish enough to be seen..
But was forgotten and rusted by time..
And become a pariah like the existence of mine.

If a strong wind would blew it away..
The timid leaf would have nowhere to stay..
It would roam the wild to rust..
And live a life without trust.

To a world rules by cruelty..
For a life govern with publicity..
From a leaf whom had a chimerical way of living..
Its existence would have no meaning.

-LêÂFRüsT

I am just an ordinary person living a very exhausted life..

always confuse asking for question that has an easy simple answers..

About Me:

*ME*
[GooD](The Ability to smile infront of adversity)
[Bad](The ability to neglect what is important)
[Love](The word I could never have)
[hate](To live)
[Grudge](vengefull)
[masayahin](LAUGH FABLE AND FUNNY) [Honest](Hides lies)
[Humble](Ashamed to be great)[Lonesome](Being left alone)[Matalino kunti](knowledgeable!?)(Nothing!?)
[Friendly](Having the ability to make friends with anyone)
[Creepy](Capable of making others annoyed)
[Stupid](Act with out thinking the consequences)
[Coward](The Act of being Afraid)[Brave](Ready to Die for the sake of other Life)
[Loyal](Can always be your human shield)
*Smile*
*Smile*
*Smile*
*Smile*
*Smile*
"why smile"[Because smile can Hide almost everything]

I also had a bad side personality

Simple but sometimes a little bet childish..
Arrogant and insecure..
Loner..
Friendly and approachable..
A daydreamer and has a hobby of self pitying..
Loves to walk even if it takes more than 2km..
Eats peanuts while walking~~
Loves ampalaya..
Vainglorious sometimes..
A little bet of an absconded being..
Misogynist and a Misanthropic person..
When I'm in a bad mood:
"JUST Keep on hating everything"

well its my first day to write but I will kepp on writing..